Day One...Not Again...Everyday!

Do you remember that moment? Oh no, what did I do? It can be frightening to reflect on for those of us struggling with alcoholism or addiction (even for those who are not). In the past, these simple memories often led to more trouble. However, by embracing humility, faith, and a working program, these reflections on our past can be motivating, comforting, and incredibly humbling for me. They hold a great power, as they are what keep me determined. I never want to veer off the path towards the light at the start of the tunnel, rather than waiting until the end.

During a recent meeting with newcomers, the question about the number of days of sobriety each person had was posed. As I reflected on my own journey, I couldn't help but feel a wave of disappointment and shame as I had to restart my count on several occasions. Despite these setbacks, I made a conscious effort to listen attentively to others' experiences. I realized the importance of being a good listener before sharing my own thoughts - a lesson I had struggled with in the past, especially when overshadowed by dominant voices like JEM's.

One particular lady shared that she had achieved an impressive 55 years of complete sobriety, which left me in awe of her accomplishment. This revelation prompted me to question my own progress. Surprisingly, I found myself less focused on the number of days I had been sober this time around. It was almost like an epiphany moment for me.

Raising my metaphorical hand, I introduced myself as Jason and acknowledged my status as a "real alcoholic." I commended the lady for her inspiring journey and unwavering commitment. When asked about my own progress, I proudly declared that I was on day one, embracing the fresh start and the opportunity for growth and improvement.

My fellows looked perplexed, their expressions a mix of curiosity and concern. As they waited on the edge of their seats, I could almost see the question marks floating above their heads. What could the story be this time? How did the relapse happen, and was it worse than the last one? In my experience, it always seems to escalate, each relapse more challenging than the previous.

Despite the struggles, today marks my 200th day of sobriety. However, I've come to realize that every day is a new beginning, a fresh start. It's like I'm on my first day of sobriety each morning when I wake up. Through prayer and acknowledging my alcoholism, I remind myself that today I cannot pick up a drink. With the grace of God, I navigate through the day, inching closer to day two as I lay down to rest.

This routine has become my daily mantra: wake up, remember my commitment to sobriety, navigate through the day, and repeat the process tomorrow. It's a continuous journey, a daily battle that I face with determination and faith. Each day is a victory, a testament to my strength and resilience in the face of adversity.

It was a profound and heartening experience to witness my friend nodding in agreement and clasping her hands together in prayer as she acknowledged what I had shared. This moment was not about boosting my ego; rather, it was about the deep connection we shared, knowing that my words resonated with her on a profound level, irrespective of her personal achievements. The fact that she could see and feel the impact of my words made me realize that perhaps others, like the newcomer, could also find solace and understanding in them.

The simplicity of the 12-step program of Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) holds a special appeal to us. The linear progression from one step to the next provides a clear path forward, allowing individuals to focus on completing each step before moving on to the next. Despite its numerical simplicity, the program entails a significant amount of introspection and soul-searching. It brings to light deep-seated resentments, shame, and guilt, prompting individuals to confront and address these emotions.

Through the process of working through the steps, individuals learn to take responsibility for their actions, make amends where necessary, and seek guidance and strength from a higher power. The act of clearing one's side of the street symbolizes a commitment to personal growth and accountability. Trust in a higher power and the willingness to help others struggling with addiction form the cornerstone of the program, fostering a sense of community and support among members.

I would implore all individuals to earnestly consider and engage with the transformative process outlined in this concise step program. It is a journey that requires dedication, commitment, and a willingness to delve deep into one's innermost self. By embracing the principles and practices of this program, individuals have the opportunity to attain the same positive outcomes and experiences that others have achieved. It necessitates a sincere effort to work through the steps, to confront and overcome personal challenges, and to liberate oneself from the constraints of past mistakes and wrongdoings. Ultimately, by taking this path, one can strive towards a life free from the burdens of sin and find a renewed sense of purpose, fulfillment, and inner peace.

Recovering from alcoholism requires immense strength, courage, and resilience. It's a journey filled with ups and downs, setbacks, and triumphs. Embracing resilience in the face of addiction entails seeking support, developing healthy coping mechanisms, and cultivating a positive mindset towards recovery.

Recovery is not a linear path, and setbacks may occur along the way. However, celebrating small vicesilience is not just about surviving life's challenges; it's about thriving in the face of adversity. By cultivating a resilient mindset, seeking support, and embracing change, you can navigate life's ups and downs with grace, courage, and strength. Remember, you are stronger than you think, and your capacity for resilience knows no bounds. Embrace the challenges, face them head-on, and watch as you emerge stronger, braver, and more resilient than ever before.

Let resilience be your guiding light in the darkest of times, your beacon of hope in moments of despair, and your source of strength when the odds seem insurmountable. Embrace resilience, and watch as you transform into the resilient, empowered individual you were always meant to be.

So, dare to be resilient, embrace life's challenges, and let your inner strength shine bright!